Morning Snuggles and Goodnight Kisses

Okay, I have to admit that I have completely chickened out on something. I simply can't do it and I am going to admit it, move on, and stop pretending I can. Next Friday is our 5th anniversary. That being a fairly momentous occasion, we had plans to go somewhere alone. Well, gradually it worked out where John didn't have enough time off for us to take a longer trip if he wanted time when the baby comes so our plan was for a weekend that included two nights away. Then that shortened to one, and now we are both relieved to find out that the other one really doesn't want to leave Little John for even one night and we're staying here. I am so happy! We are going to spend the day at the spa together, have dinner, etc., and then we are going to be very happy to go pick up our boy and bring him home so we can all go to bed where we belong. Now, I know we have circumstances that affect this because we regularly get time alone due to our fantastic babysitter lineup and also have time in the evenings after he goes to bed. I'm sure we would feel differently without that and have a huge need to connect with each other for a longer time. But we are blessed with that and all I can think about are all the years when I will not have a son who needs his mommy's hugs and kisses at night and can't wait to see her in the morning. He has his little routine - each morning when he wakes up he brings his blanket into our room, climbs in bed with me, and says "Momma!" like he hasn't seen me in a week. Then I get a little while to snuggle before we start our day and if Daddy's still there, he gets to join in. So, for now, we have decided to surrender and enjoy our little man in yellow Buzz Lightyear pajamas as long as we can. He's one of the best celebrations of our marriage anyway.